When I was 16 years old, I experienced a profound NDE that catapulted me into the study of spirituality, metaphysics and religious studies. I read every book I could find on these subjects and studied many different forms of meditation, I was obsessed, perhaps obsessed with the age-old question, what is the nature of God? Many years after my NDE I did not question the existence of god, that was not my quest but rather the origin of god, the essence of god, the quality of god